The blog post:
"This whole thing just blows my mind. It takes me back to my mission when I visited with people that thought the lord was telling them things he really wasn't. you say you have a strong testimony and the lord is telling you this is right but if your TRULY TRULY had a testimony (and if you honestly stop and think about what i'm about to say without taking immediate offence you'll know i'm right) the lord is the only "perfect" person to ever live on the this earth. and by saying that he has told you that cameron is really supposed to be a girl is just like saying the lord made a mistake by making him a boy....the lord doesn't make mistakes, if he did then everything every religion believes would be false and especially the LDS religion that you profess to have such a strong testimony in. and if thats true cameron is supposed to be a boy and there is NO other alternative....either that or the lord isn't perfect and he lied to us all. Think about it....honestly, with an open heart and mind, and remember the devil can answer your prayers too."
From the moment we are born, we are defined - not by WHO we are - but rather by what gender role we fit into. From the beginning of our lives the clothes we wear, the games we play, which restrooms we use, the toys we purchase for our children, and the friends that we choose to associate with are all major aspects of our lives that are influenced and defined by strict gender stereotypes.
When I was pregnant people often asked me, "Do you want a boy or a girl"... to which I would respond, "I want a healthy baby." Most expectant parents realize all of the things that can go wrong during pregnancy. Many families are faced with extreme challenges when it comes to the developmental health of their newborn children. Some infants are born with muscular dystrophy, down syndrome, cerebral palsy, autism, spinal bifida, cystic fibrosis, congenital heart defects, cleft lip/cleft palate, diabetes, gastro-intestinal disorders, and the list goes on. Many of these conditions manifest immediately after birth and some surface later in life through the delay of developmental milestones. When families are faced with the aforementioned challenges, nobody approaches them with the same level of insensitivity or discourages them from seeking understanding or treatment for the affected child by callously making the assertion that, "The Lord doesn't make mistakes, if he did then everything every religion believes would be false."
Until I made the effort to listen to Cammie, understand her and the condition that has challenged her life, I - too - was ignorant. Through prayer, I have been blessed to come in contact with the people and resources that have led to an awareness of my child's gender variance and an understanding of her condition... Hopefully, this understanding will lead to a better life for her and other children like her. Please forgive me if I get a little technical while attempting to explain the physiological development of gender variance as I have come to understand it...
At conception, the genetic make-up of a child is complete - including the sex of the infant. Within about three days after conception, the fertilized egg, which is dividing rapidly into many cells, passes through the fallopian tube into the uterus where it attaches to the uterine wall. The placenta, which will nourish the baby, also begins to form...
4 weeks - At this point of development the structures that eventually form the face and neck are becoming evident. The heart and blood vessels continue to develop. And the lungs, stomach, liver, and gonads (testes or ovaries) start to develop...
6-8 weeks - The baby is now about the size of a grape - almost an inch in size. Eyelids and ears are forming and even the tip of the nose is visible. The arms and legs are well formed. The fingers and toes grow longer and more distinct. The gonads remain ovaries or differentiate into testicles based on hormones that are produced at this stage of pregnancy. The release of these hormones (one of which is testosterone) determines the internal development of reproductive organs. when testosterone is present, internal male reproductive structures develop. Without testosternone - the gonads become ovaries and the development of the uterus, fallopian tubes, and upper part of the vagina will progress. If there is a significant imbalance of these hormones during this delicate phase of fetal development, the infant may be born with ambiguous genetalia...
10-12 weeks - The fetus measures approximately two and a half inches and begins to move. The doctor may hear the fetal heartbeat with special instruments and the sex organs of the baby may become visible. The brain undergoes rapid development, producing 250,000 new neurons every minute. During this phase of neurological growth, it is believed that hormones (known as androgens) wash the brain in a process known as the "androgen bath". The androgen bath (coupled with genetics) determine the neurological blueprint of gender identity. Variations in these factors during this crucial period of neurological development can result in cross-gender cellular gender identity markers in the brain...
Christina, I just went to your blog about Cameron and just wanted to let you know that I love you and am thinking about you! I can't even imagine dealing with what you and your family are dealing with, and I'm sorry you're getting some negative feedback. I don't pretend to know the best way to deal with your situation, and I would think it laughable to imagine that the Lord would even see fit to make me privy to answers to YOUR problems. As we know, that's not the way it works. The Lord only gives us answers to our own problems (and those under our direct stewardship), not someone else's. I'm sure your family is well intentioned, and hopefully they will eventually come to the conclusion that they don't have to agree with you but they must learn to respect your decisions.ReplyDelete
I agree with the person that said the Lord doesn't make mistakes, but not in the way he or she meant it. Cammie's condition is not a mistake. The Lord doesn't make mistakes, but he intentionally creates imperfect bodies to teach us things. I'm sure that Cammie's condition is as much to teach those around her as it is to teach her--if not more. I remember talking to my husband about this very thing a few years ago (don't remember how the subject came up). As you said in your post, there are actual physiological conditions that create gender confusion in people, such as having the external genitalia of one sex and the internal genitalia of another. Who's to say what gender that person is??? And with a problem like that, how is a person suppose to lead a normal life, since gender identification is such a huge part of who we are? (and of course Cammie's condition is no less difficult) I remembering wondering aloud to my husband what the Lord expected of someone with such a problem and he suggested that maybe they are just measured by a completely different "yardstick," for lack of a better term. Sort of like how people with severe mental disabilities are automatically saved in the celestial kingdom, I'm sure that people with trans gender confusion (sorry, don't remember the correct term) are cut a much bigger break because of the extremely painful and difficult trials and decisions they have to deal with.
Anyway, I am soooo not explaining myself very well and I'm sorry for that! I formulated my response a lot better in my mind--don't know why I couldn't put it on paper the way I wanted it, but I just wanted you to know that I know you are a great parent and have your children's best interest at heart. I know we haven't been around each other for about 10 years now, but I remember how much you loved your kids! I always admired that about you.
Christina, I'm sorry for the shit Cameron, you, and the rest of your family will have to deal with in the coming days. People are going to judge you for the choices you are making. Ugly, hurtful things are going to be said. Your other children are going to take abuse for defending their sister. And Cameron is going to have to navigate hurdles that I can't even imagine.ReplyDelete
But thankfully, she's not going through it alone. It has got to be such a wonderful thing for her that she doesn't have to hide anything from you, and she has your full support. If my son was dealing with the same problems, and living with his mother, I don't doubt that he would have taken his life already. The depths of your love for your child could very well save her life.
I don't care what anyone else says about the decisions you have made. As far as I'm concerned, you made the only choice a loving mother could. I know I'm way down here at the bottom of the states, haven't seen you in years, but if you ever need anything, don't hesitate to ask. Just like you unconditional love your children, you've got my unconditional support and friendship. Outside of family, there are very few people I can say that about; I can count them on one had and still be able to pick my nose with a free finger. Every time I think of you, I smile.
I miss the hell outta you.
I am part native American, my great grandmother was full blood Cherokee. Growing up looking for answers, and wanting to embrace the richness that was my heritage, I learned about my ancestors. One of the most interesting things about the people of this great nation before white man came, was an intrinsic understanding that only the great spirit, (The Sky Father, God, Our Heavenly Father) and The Earth our mother are perfect. God our father is always seen as perfect, and only God, but even our Earth Mother in her myriad imperfections beyond our ken, is also perfect. It is through her that we learn the beauty and balance in NOT trying to be perfect. It is embraced at a cultural level and is seen in everything truly native American in manufacture and design. Want to know if an "Authentic Navajo" rug you see at a gift shop is real or not? Look at the repeating patterns in the design. If all the patterns are identical, face the same way from one to the next, endlessly, then it is NOT authentic. Socio-cultural diversity is literally woven into the fabric of everything.ReplyDelete
God does not speak to us about others lives, it is not his way, and is not part of the fabric of his love and many blessings. People, with their imperfect hearing and sight, often forget this. Which is why Jesus spoke to Matthew, and told him that ONLY our heavenly father is fit to judge another. (Matthew 7:1-8) and warned us of the problems and price of judging others because it was something that would void one of the many blessings our Heavenly Father has given each of us. Free Will. As someone else above wrote, God answers questions for ourselves, and those under our direct care who need our love.
Some how, over years, our loving and generous father has been painted by some as a vengeful and angry God, a wielder of fire, brimstone and death. "The wages of sin are death" What folks so often forget as you so accurately pointed out, Man sins from the mouth, not from unclean hands putting food in.
There is great beauty in imperfection, and as you say, lessons for each of us to learn about ourselves. Your growth and beauty is in and of itself, testimony to this. From the lessons you learned from the women who paints, to Lavelle (who is with God now waiting for the day when you'll be reunited) to the love you have laid upon all your children, you have grown into a wonderful, beautiful child of God.