I was remodeling (and cleaning) Cammie's room while she was away at the beach with her best friend for spring break. She just had a birthday and I wanted it to be a surprise. While I was "mucking out" and organizing the entourage of girl's things, clothes, dolls, trash, and trinkets... I found a couple of precious keepsakes among, what can only be described as the rubble of childhood. These precious expressions were buried under clothes and toys, as if the emotions they captured were so commonplace they lacked significant meaning to her... but as I read each treasure, my heart swelled with love and gratitude at the gift God has given me. With each written expression, I was taught something truly profound. Through blessed insight... I was given a rare opportunity to catch a glimpse of her world, her experience, her beautiful heart, and her precious perspective. What an amazing, strong, and gifted child God has given me. I'm thankful for all that she has taught me, what she continues to teach me with each new day, and all of the precious truths she has inspired in my life. I wanted to take a moment to share "The pearls cast amidst the swine"...
Since this is difficult to read in such small font, I am dictating it...I Am
By: Cammie Elaine Johnson
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I am imaginative and gifted...
I wonder what it's like to be a tree wondering in a meadow
I hear a rainbow growing overhead
I see the shadows moving without a source
I want love and peace around the world.
I am imaginative and gifted...
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I pretend to go through walls
I feel the spirits of love wrapped around me
I touch the universe with every step I take & every move I make
I worry about the hate of love hidden in every corner
I cry when I'm feeling down on special days.
I am imaginative and gifted...
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I understand no two shadows are alike
I say I will grow bold and strong for life
I dream about drifting in the clouds on wonderful days
I try to be my inner beauty even when I'm not
I hope it begins in me...
I am imaginative and gifted.
By: Cammie Elaine Johnson
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I am imaginative and gifted...
I wonder what it's like to be a tree wondering in a meadow
I hear a rainbow growing overhead
I see the shadows moving without a source
I want love and peace around the world.
I am imaginative and gifted...
~
I pretend to go through walls
I feel the spirits of love wrapped around me
I touch the universe with every step I take & every move I make
I worry about the hate of love hidden in every corner
I cry when I'm feeling down on special days.
I am imaginative and gifted...
~
I understand no two shadows are alike
I say I will grow bold and strong for life
I dream about drifting in the clouds on wonderful days
I try to be my inner beauty even when I'm not
I hope it begins in me...
I am imaginative and gifted.
The finished product...
That's much too clean, for an eleven year old's room! She won't recognize it, when she comes back. :)
ReplyDeleteMelissa XX
This piece of work by Cammie is just as awesome reading it here as when you read it to me. I WISH I had her resolve and spirit when I was young like her! God bless her (and you!)
ReplyDeletecute room ^_^
ReplyDeleteCammie is such a brave and wonderful little girl, I wish I was able to do what she has done at her age and then so much of my unhappy part of my life could of been avoided. I've learned that my own mother is a saint when it comes to my transition and that I had really nothing to worry about then.
ReplyDeleteYour a wonderful mother and your understanding and support for your little girl is amazing how well her transition has come with your support. I love her room I wish I had a room like that as a child ^_^ . best of luck to you and Cammie.
Thank you so much for sharing all this. Cammie is so beautiful (inside and out) and smart. You're right, you are blessed, and Cammie is blessed to have such a wonderful mom as you. We, the readers, are blessed to have you share such wonderful poems and stories (true ones!) from your little angel. Thank you once again.
ReplyDeleteHey Cammie and Mom. I was reading through the trinkets of childhood and it reminded me of a lot of my writing and illustrations from childhood. I certainly didn't transition at as young of an age as you but I never made it to adulthood in the wrong gender either. :)
ReplyDeleteAnyway I wanted to pass on a phrase that you can use when people question how you know you're a girl. Simply ask them "how do they know they are a boy or a girl." I've recently began to seem my original therapist again from 12 years lapse for my final GRS letter and she reminded me of the exchange she and my father had in a session.
I didn't realize 12 years went by because I was busy touring in a band, completing an art degree, and working for one of the best companies in the world.
Of course no one in my world aside from my supportive family and fiancé know where I came from. When I told him all he could care about was who I was not how I came to be. He's awesome! Keep the chin up and attitude swinging and I have no doubt that you'll find that special someone and make it through any gender variant issue life will through at you.
Go get 'em girl!